No baby, no cry...but I really cried alot today

So my day was NOT suposed to go as it did. At all. I got up to go for treatment at the cancer center for 8 am. The back-up on the northway should have been my warning. Sat there and sat there forever, then my gas light comes on. I'm lucky I made it to the hospital! So I go into the lab as usual...they take my blood, then I go upstaires to see Dr. Giatti, my hematologist...she asked me how things were going...long story short: I had severe pain in my right calf last week, I had an ultrasound thursday to check for a blood clot. It was negative, so yay! My leg felt better like the next day, then I started to have really bad chest pain, couldnt take a breath in or move my left arm. I was in bed all day couldnt move..thought I had just pulled a muscle from having bronchitis...But I also have had 5 asthma attacks in the past 2 weeks, been on antibiotics, and taking my rescue inhaler regularly. I told my dr this morning and she was immediatly concerned, I had no clue what could be wrong...She explained that it was most likely a PE (pulmonary embolism/blood clot in my lung) just by hearing my symptoms. Mike came down..she called my OB, I went over there, had another NST, she checked me...blah no change. She says they will put me on lovenox ect..They wont induce me bc my cervix isnt ripe...so im waiting:(  But she did do something painful in there to help things along..I was sent back over the hospital to have a CT scan of my chest..By this point it was 12:30 I had cried my eyes out several times, then I get this paperwork to sign...It tells me all of the horrible things that could happen to my baby bc of the amount of radiation. possibility of childhood cancer...just horrible...I cry AGAIN, more...so after reading and mike reading we decided to do it bc I could die if we dont do it...The scan wasnt that bad, besides the warm feeling in your throat, tongue, hands, and further down. Then once that is finally over, I have to sit for 2+ hours with a cath in my arm with mike and tyler for them to tell me it was negative. However, she explained that they cant always see them bc it could be small. The pain is still there. whatever, im not dying, it was a day from hell, i'm going to wait patiently for baby to get here. Thankful for no more treatments, no more shots, bloodwork, no PE..or too small to worry about, no blood thinners, just time...waiting for my prize. And im ok with that.